dissapointed.


again. it happens again!
this time worst.
i've had enough okiies.
if my sister see this..
i hope she understands...
here again.. she is being unfair n unreasonable...
everytime my friends come,,
i dono why but she will juz give that kind of irritated face to my friends.
no matter how my friends smile n call her once they step into the house,,
she will still give that same irritated face to them.
when i come home without my friends,, she will always smile.
okiies.. i noe she is trying to be protective to me..
but if one person nv fails before..
they won't noe wad is right wad is wrong.
like wad ppls say...
' die dao le jiu pa qi lai.'
so if once u fail.. u noe how izzit,,
u will noe wad to do the next time.


everytime my friends come.. her face comefirm black.
i dono why?
my brother n sister's friends come..
she always smile n say hi back to their friends..
but NOT mine.
alot of times she juz like wanting to scold my friends..
the way she toks to my friends..
the way she asked us to leave the room juz becoz she wants to bathe.
why can't she juz be nice to them?
i noe sometimes i have friendship problems that really made me cry the entire day.
she see liao also heart pain..
but that doesn means that now i will also get it.
now i noe already..
not everyone can be trusted.
but does she noe... the way she do hurts me badly.
i repeat myself again..
it HURST ME!


sometimes my friends dun even dare to come my house..
n u noe wad?
juz now they are in my room..
we watching tv..
then suddenly she come in n she juz so rudly say this.
WEI I WAN BATHE AH!
can't u juz be abit polite?
ok fine i dun bother..
so i juz quickily carry the computer to my mums room and we continue watching tv.
argh.. i really get fed-up already..
its like. this is not how u do to protect me.


n jie.. its not i dun respect her..
she is juz trying to say something..
she dun like me to use our house food to cook food for them and juz now she actually shouted at my friend ok...
then i say YAH LAH YAH LAH so loudly one ok...
u dun even noe n u say i dun respect.
its like.. if this happens to u rite..
u sure also will angry de lor..
sometimes when ah ma ask u things.. u also like irritated de lor..
ure attitude sometimes also not good lor.
do u noe that she always give face to my friends..
n make my friends all afraid to even come our house..
juz like making them avoiding me?
do u noe how it feels?
i respect her as my ah ma...
but thats not the right way of treating my friends..
cuz my friends did nothing wrong..
they noe ah ma dun like ppl to be noise..
n now they nv make noise.. the most we watch tv in my room or kor kor room.
thats all..
n some more they always call her when they come.
they respect her.. n she dun respect my friends?
so wad if she is ah mah? we are all humans...
u wan ppl to respect u.. u also muz respect ppl.
sometimes i really dun understand wad she wants okiies..
if she really dun like my friends..
fine u won't see them again at home.
i shall not allow my friends to step into my house anymore..
i'm really tired with it...
very tired... really...


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