lost, empty, useless.


i'm lost in wad i am doing.
wad i am suppose to be and wad kind of person i am.
i'm empty in everything i do.
no idea, no thinking, no everything.
i'm useless n everything.
useless person in the world now.


wats my aim?
wats my strength?
wats the use of me?


feeling so empty now.
very empty.
dono wad to type also.
everyday seems to be the same for me.
i dun even have a topic to say abt my life now.
ppl asking me to blog.
but i'm so empty?
wats the use of everyday when everyday seems the same?
wats the use of it?


always tell myself to think the bright side.
but actually i'm not.
maybe i'm juz being too sensitive,,
but am i?
something is bothering inside me.
why am i not always happy n always give a stupid face.
sometimes even my friends find me irritating.
my life isn't that wonderful everyday.
no one by my side.


lena is sad,
tha retards were there for her.
meiting is sad,
me n xueli is there for her.
wanyi need ppl to tok to.
someone will juz call her up to chat.
everyone have someone by their side when they need them.
but i dun find anyone that will always be by my side when i need them.


its getting meaningless.
maybe i have ppl hu will be there for me.
but i always give a smile face n no one noes actually i'm in a down mood.
anyway, its myself who choose this way for my everyday life.


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