fucking moodless!


whats with me la!
i don't understand why i'm in such a low mood now.
can't even smile,, n i don't feel anything now!
my mind is empty now!
now i'm feeling so freaking pissed off lahx.
don't know whats with me lah.
luckily meiting never come my house,,
if not she will see my moody face n star asking me what happen n i'll sure get freak off if she keep asking me.


keriner is so numb now,,
she can't feel anything.
she is sms-ing me now,,
but i dono how to respond to her.
i know she needs me now,,
but i can't even make myself smile!
how can i make her day up today?!
i think all my replys actually made her more sian!


i actually wanted to "kill" my piano!
played it so damn hard,,
anyhow press the key!
dono wad song to play.
get pissed off with wad i'm doing!!!!


wanted to study my science but i end up never!
cuz my mind isn't working n i dun even feel like looking at the notes n stuff!
its freaking me off!
i bet express students will kill themselves after 'O' levels!
they still had to say back for lessons after their MID-YR EXAM!
wad shit is that?!
they are worst then me!
i'm juz someone that is so damn lazy to study n to do anything.!


J3 was in again.
i should feel damn happy!!!
but NO! i don't feel happy at all!
why?! don't ask me! cuz i don't know myself!


i'm like someone so useless n hopeless!
was like thinking of joining that youth competition in LWSSOM,,
but end up dono wad to sing.
i'm not even doing any homework for the competitions too.
keep going around asking ppl wad song should i choose,,
n myself down here actually nv do anything!
what is this again?!
wad do i actually want?
do i really want to join that competition or i'm juz afraid of steping infront of all the judges n sing?!
i have no comfidence in myself.
i always ask ppl to be confidence in themselves,,
believen in themselves!
but me?! i juz sit down here n do nothing!
HEY IRIS! DO U THINK BY SITTING DOWN HERE U WILL GET WAD U WANT?!
i'll tell u. NO! understand USELESS IDIOT!
u guys might be thinking,,
why am i scolding myself?!
cuz i think i'm like so hopeless now!


wad i want for my life?!
wad is my goal?!
i have no goal,,
i had nv think for my LIFE yet!


bloody hell!
i should have done something to gain something!
i'm like lazy-ing around lah!
fuck up!!!!


*RIS