feeling lost.


i'm so lost now.
my feelings for everything.
i'm in such a mess now.
maybe its cuz i'm thinking too much.
i dono why,, but i think i'm jealous.
why n what for am i jealous?
jealous of wad?
feeling so useless now,,
feeling so lost now.
i need someone now!
i really need.
i dono why,, but i feel like i'm broking down!
i need someone.


i might look as if there is nothing happening,,
but i'm feeling terrible inside!
i dono what to do now!
where is the listening ears i use to have?
where had he gone too?
the one i would say its always being patience to me,,
listen to me all my complains and emo suff.
the one joelle had thanked him for being there when she isn't there for me.
where had that person gone too?
properbly lost out of my side.
well... thats not really wad i'm sad abt.
but another person.


i'm so lost...
i think i'm juz being silly.
why should i think so much for one who doesn't even notice me after some periode of missing?
i've been thinking thinking thinking!
i think too much i guess.
really very xin ku.
i cannot stay in this state okays!
i juz need some strength from u!
when will u appear again?
its been so long ever since u came here to update yourself abt me.
i'm juz waiting,, waiting n waiting.
when will u appear again?
i dono.


come on! stop being an idiot here iris.
get a life gal!


well... i have to scold myself to keep myself awake...
maybe u guys think i'm insane,,
anyway... no one can give me the strength!
i juz need someone to listen to me...
thats all. bye.


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