i'm missing him. :(
thats really bad.
heard some news abt him,,
i think its kinda sadding.
hope they can stay strong n continue making music! (:
jiayou!!!

i'm really weak,,
sick now,,
old injuries on my wrist is killing me now,,
my body aching,,
i seriously don't know whats with me lahs.
i'm always weak,, easy sick n stuff!
since the day i was born till now.
just can't stand it.
i don't want to be always sick,,
its irritating me and giving me bad temper.

well i felt really bad ignoring my friends,,
it makes them feels like i'm disliking them or something,,
but i know without me,, they are really fine.
i don't know why i can't seem to talk to them,,
maybe cuz i felt real bad abt it.
i don't even talk to them in class now.
we don't even say HI don't even say BYE.
i don't feel good inside.
i hope after we leave the school,,
we'll say HI outside. i really hope.
they are always my friends.
but whether its close or not thats all.
i think we had some gap inbetween,,
i don't know how to talk to them.
their topic is always about their stuff,,
i don't know anything.
can't do anything either.
anyway,, they won't even read my blog.
so they won't know what i'm thinking.
they might just hate me or something.
well,, just let it be.

i really can't stand it,,
really attention seeker.
just a little stuff she will want to die,,
u really no life lahs.
always wants their attention,,
telling my friends abt what u do and make her jealous?
i don't see a need to do that.
you know she likes him,,
why do u need to make her jealous.
i know ure harmless,,
but can u just think before telling or what?
always down there telling her what u know what u know,,
i know u knows alot of things but so?
whats there to show off?
and please admit yourself as a fan,,
stop telling yourself ure not.
if ure not,, u won't get so fed up when ppl talked bad abt them and stuff.
and what for care what ppl say abt them,,
ure the one who likes them,, not others.
if they don't like them,, just let them be lahs.
and if they never say hi or bye to you,,
u will surely in a down mood.
or if u talk to them and they never reply,,
u'll get upset n u'll go super emo.
i don't think friends will be THAT emo if your friend nv reply u or what so ever.
your just over re-acting.
you are always upset by little stuff,,
i don't know why,, stay strong lah.
if such small things makes u feel like dying,,
than i think i'll die eariler than u.
and actually sometimes somebody joke abt u like what ever what ever,,
actually u very happy cuz they play with you.
than u'll be like blaming your friends for joking abt u infront of them,,
and they will start making fun of your names or what-so-ever.
you are always very over acted in some ways,,
u are telling yourself u are not a fan,,
but in the other hands,, you are always very crazy when u see them.
i don't think friends go crazy seeing friends?
( usually friends go crazy seeing each other when they nv meet up for mths or yrs )
seriously,, i think u should think about it.
and don't keep saying you want to die cuz of little matters.
thats not right really. life should be wonderful.
if only u make it shuck,, it will be shuck.
you are always blessed with ppl who do cares abt you.
don't even think of ending life that easily.
(ps: if i sound mean,, plz mind me. )

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