something is really bothering me right now.
its all abt vball and i don't know how to describe the feeling.
i'm so wanting to train indoor.
but when i think of it,, i don't know why i felt so don't-feel-like-it feeling.
cuz when its indoor training,, everyone will be there for training for sure.
and i don't know how we are going to be like.
most of the senior are new to us.
i'm so not good at making new friends.
unless they come talk to me 1st.
i'm worried of something i shouldn't.
i just felt stressed!

competition is really coming.
and i don't know what will happen next.
its so unpredictable.
it all counts on how much efforts we put in.
if we nv put in much efforts,, i don't know what will happen.
i want all of us to be happy with the results.
i just scared there will be regrets here and there.
ahhh its just freaking me out!
damn it!!!!!

next tuesday will be the 1st time for all newbies to be training in indoor.
its excited i'm so looking forward!
but there is just something that is bothering me!
maybe i just think too much!
sometimes i just feel like quitting and join some new sports or so.
i just don't know what i'm thinking.
aren't volleyball what i wanted???
didn't i waited vball for yrs?
didn't i wanted to go back to that court very much?
didn't i had the passion that nv fades away???
why am i having all these thoughts?
i felt real stress now.
i don't know why too?! it shucked! it really shucked big times!!!!!

*mood less*
*sad*
*frustrated*
just can't explain my feelings now!
its all in a mess! damn it!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
i want to go to the BEACH!!! shout everything out!
damn bad mood days.
i anti that!

[ bad mood makes bad day! ]