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Monday, June 04, 2007

i guess i'm just too stressed up bahs.
and YES! i cried for almost an hr.
on off crying... trying to stop myself from crying,, it only stop for awhile and yea,, my tears start flowing again. once i start thinking abt something,, i'll wanna cry.. i couldn't control...

many things had happen now a days.
i really cannot take it anymore.
the more i remind myself of what i heard,,
the more i'll think.
i don't want to think.
i don't want to know.
i wish i know nothing...
i don't think i can trust anyone of u.
i don't know who is telling me the truth.
i rather run away avoiding and not understand what is happening now.

if i can choose,, i'll choose not to fall into your trap.
if only i can control myself and lying to myself.
you are no one but just another friend.
someone who won't stay long as a friend,, someone who is just a passerby in my life.
someone who actually hurt me without knowing.
someone who i actually stupidly trust.
yes,, i can't judge by what i heard from ppl.
well i'm tired to know more abt u.
yes,, we can still be friends ((: but not as close as the 1st time we met.
shall not elaborate more...

exam is like tml.
i don't know if i'm prepared. although its only 30 MCQ question.
but its not as easy as simple as we all think.
thanks to me for not paying attention in class.
now,, i'm kinda lost in some chapter still.
like oh well. i just hope i pass.
a pass is more than enough for someone who nv pay attention in class.
i'll pay attention in class for the next semester!
no matter how tired how boring the class is! i make sure i'll pay attention!
yes can say maybe i put volleyball in 1st place till i forget my studies and my friends. i really should balance everything. sigh...

some people should know who i'm referring too.
so pls don't stupidly come ask me are u referring to blah blah blah or blah blah blah! i'll really F u off!
seriously sometimes being too nice to people is no good.
cuz why?! people will make use of your kindness!
take u for granted! like u do something and u think that person will nv get angry with u. YOU ARE WRONG! its just that people don't wanna show that they are angry cuz they still want this friendship and didn't want to quarrel!
but too many times like that,, u'll really make the person hate u and hope to END THAT FRIENDSHIP! don't ever cross the line.
don't act like u know me so well,, cuz u don't!
i know who are the ones who knows my temper.
or to those who are much more clever,, they won't make u angry when ure mood is already BAD!
please don't take me for granted!
i don't do things with any mu4 di4.
i don't like people testing me! it means u don't trust me.
like for what f you use those kinda method to test me?!
i don't need all that. get lost!
please don't make me hate you,, cuz i don't really hate anyone.
i'm okay with all... if only you want to make yourself special from the rest!

it had been a emo day for me today.
i'll be fine tml! ((:
maybe when someone is sick will easily get emo,, frustrated and easy fed up.
or maybe,, i'm just too tired.
i guess so...
shall end here and get some rest.
hopefully my fever won't come back when i wake up tml morning.
bless me!
good luck to all who is having exam tml! ((:

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